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Thursday, May 17, 2012 0 Comments
i wonder if some people find it stupid and believe those people who had it were on drugs.I never experience one before but it sounds really...scary and beautiful?
i just found out that theres like 17types of near death experience.
plus, do you know that most near death scenarios are positive, or at least illustrates the importance of life and its livings? :)
Near death experience doesnt always occur but most people get them when theyre sick, dying or get into an accident..
more like a second chance for a person to go back to earth, or a chance to see how beautiful life is, go thru some amazing phases like..idk google it up hahahaa
Im always interested in this sort of things ; near death experiences, astrologies, (but never UFOs)
and i always found myself searching for articles about near death experience when im bored XD ever since 2years ago? :)
(i doubt it'll happen to me, cuhz you know, why would anyone want me to go back to live my life ? =.= i might as well go into the light and.........
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now that i said it.
im scared.
A best lesson in Psychology
Monday, May 14, 2012 0 Comments
1. When a person laugh too much even on stupid things, be sure that person is sad deep inside.2. When a person sleeps a lot, be sure that person is lonely.
3. When a person talks less, and if he talks fast then it means that person keeps secrets.
4. When a person cant cry then that person is weak.
5. When someone eats in abnormal way then that person is in tension.
6. When someone cry on little things then it means he is innocent & soft hearten.
7. When someone gets angry on silly and small things it means he is in love
Try to see all these in real life, you will find them all.
Serra back in 2009 =.=
Thursday, May 10, 2012 0 Comments
Look what i found in my other dead blog.A post I made since April 25, 2009
and i was....16 years old? o.o
I dont really remember but....THE OLD ME, Y U NO BE SPECIFIC?
SATURDAY, APRIL 25, 2009
once upon a time
once upon a time
a girl almost gave up her life for almost everything
she forced herself to smile,
and to see the world in different kind of ways.
once upon a time
a girl can barely believe in everything
she live in her own world, own dreams.
care less about realities.
life and realities,
dreams and fantasies,
illusions and nightmares.
once upon a time,
she couldnt take it any longer
she had enough, she took it all.
Can't bear anything else.
wishing,
hoping,
asking,
needing.
What makes all of this to happen?
where did I went wrong?
why didnt I see it coming?
how am i suppose to get out of this mess?
This world is destroyed, the world i been avoiding from the very beggining.
and so does my world, the place where i been living with my fairy tales.
where else? what's next?
nothing.
left alone,
dying,
broken heart,
confused mind.
Trying to live my life
trying to stand up for myself
falling apart
but, i'll try.
once upon a time,
the girl noticed something she knew since a long time ago,
she slap herself, asking herself to wake up,
and said, "this is the truth"
"you gotta be strong and continue walking your road,
your path, your ways,
peoples you met, peoples in your life,
they are the obstacles,
obstacles of what ?
close your eyes, close your mind, close your heart,
just run and never look back."
6billionsecrets
Monday, May 7, 2012 0 Comments
It became a part of my daily routine to log in and read all the posts.Not because im emotional, or to make myself feel better, and definitely not because i enjoyed reading everyone's secrets.
The comments are sometimes harsh tho but some really make sense.
and the posts? the secrets?
one word, heartbreaking.
There's only like 10% of happy ones and most of the secrets are really, heartbreaking.
Especially the ones dated back to 2010 ; i couldnt imagine what they went through.
I have bad childhood memory myself that not many people know of.
And i do know what it feels like to be completely alone.
I know whats depression, i been depressed for two years without being noticed.
I know what it feels like to not have anyone around for me. and yes, i did go through hard times alone and no one notice. Not one.
I know i been made fun of (its obvious) and i know about all the things people said about it.
I know how painful it is.
(but yet i did nothing cause i was useless, and i know useless people dont do anything.)
And reading these secrets? I wish i know about this website a long time ago...but i think its still new? since i can only find post from 2010 and not in the year when i was depressed haha =.=
i know what i went through isnt as bad as most of the posts, but i remembered feeling depressed and dead.
I dont know what happen after that. I went through that for 2 years.
It eventually gets better after that - i didnt know what happened but things started to get better. I think its probably because i didnt care what people think anymore.
I really hope that people who posted on this website wont take the easy way out ; commit suicide and just hang on, try to survive and i hope one day they'll realize how beautiful life is :)
A NEW SKIN WOOHOOO
Sunday, May 6, 2012 0 Comments
I have my old template like..idk for more than six months now? and i realized i need to change it :3I JUST NEED MORE WHITE ON MY BLOG HAHAHA
and of course, a little bit of pink and rainbow colors :3
miahahahaha
I kinda change it a little bit than the original one. i kinda messed up some (its not really that bad) and i been working on it for like hours now (while chatting with my friend and that im a total noob when it comes to html)
Im really tired right now and im sick of reading those htmls so i betta be doing something else (aint sleeping eventho i didnt sleep for the whole day)
anyways, thats it!
Friday, May 4, 2012 2 Comments
So i just finished watching The avenger for the second time. Hmm.. rating? id say 8.5/10 :)
im not really into marvels, superheros or anything like that (but i watched the hulk (which i kinda forgot the storyline) and ironman before, does that count? hohoho)
It kinda like..lack of actions and stuff >.> it was kinda boring at first but i really enjoyed watching it! :) i would give a 8 or 9/10 if theres MORE actions hahaa
I literally spent the whole day watching movies and facebooking.
ah and i also watched battleship ; it was okay but not my kind of moviee ya get it but still i enjoyed watching it :)
soo... 7.8/10? haha
(captain america is like soo freakin hot like oh my goddd hahahahahahaha)
anyways, i dont really have much to say in this post so im gon continue searching for more movies :)
*or does anyone knows any more awesome movies? please do tell me :)
conclusion? lol jk :)
Thursday, May 3, 2012 0 Comments
Pictures? doneessays of my semester one life? done
Thats all i got to show for semester one :)
Theres a lot of things happen in semester one, both good and bad :) ; and yes i did learnt from it :)
but meh im not here to talk about the mistakes i made and how much i regret it -.-
well like yeah i do regret it but bleh what can i do right? hahaha
(i leave the page for a while and now i forgot what i was going to post -.-)
okay so im going to keep this short and write whatever is in my mind right now
semester one is okay. I didnt have that much "fun" (fun as in fun in a way i dont like it - if it makes sense)
you know whats fun to me? sleeps, games and money; to survive throughout the semester
and i dont like going out since it looks like wasting my time ; once in a while is okay tho. once in a while and not the same shit? hahaa
i hope semester two is going to be great!
im not really excited to go back to sarawak and have to deal with all the assignments yet, it would be cool if theres arts and design in sabah -.-
im complaining about how i have to pack and shits to just start a life! plus going to the airpot? ugh how i hate carrying a lot of bags and getting check by the securities and go thru all th shits. i know, its hard, i just need some place that makes me feel like home -.- (exclude all the weird noises i heard)
i'll still be bringing a lot of bags next month ; like, im not a dude, one bag is obviously not enough for me lol, i need like at least 1 big bag thats like idk 25kg and a few mini bags like..light enough for me to carry it? hahaa
I kinda miss going to classes and shits (even in some times i was too lazy to go and just sleeps in my room like a pig. i remembered i slept the whole day and i skip all the classes *no fucks was given that day* but hey at least i finish my assignments right? haha
just the airpot, carrying my bags and unpacking my stuff that is troubling me like ughhh i just want to study. (yes its part of life but its really boring you kno -.-) and then get th taxi and stuff, that and this i just feel so freakin old and i never want this D:
Its just boring ; not that i couldnt do it lol.. its just...boring.
anyways, im done complaining. lol XD
be posting random shits from now on since im done talking about semester one :D hahaaa
ps: sorry for the bad english since i jsut write it all down without like checking it and blahblahblah plus i didnt make a blog to improve my english, just something to do when im bored so blahblahhblah
and thats it bye muahmuah
This and that of my semester one life! :)
Took a few photos around uitm and friends soo yeah :3This is kind of fun and i think im going to keep taking pictures LOL
semester two! gonna fill my blogs with pictures !
(pictures of my friends, assignments, foods, my room, classes, buildings, cats and....kittens)
Just uitm :) i think this photo was taken before cultural studies class. haha :) Zilla was waiting for her sister at youthfloor so we waited upstairs outside the library.
yeaahh, block A :)
I remember it was noon, and noon is not a good time to take pictures so we had lunch. Here's hana (at the back smiling) and her friend! We were doing our photography assignment ; fashion photography. Hanna is really cute and since we're doing korean fashion, we agreed that shes the perfect model for this :)
One of the visual research assignments. Its called the "fantasy world assignments" thingy. So my idea was all the teddy bears that was thrown away by their owners, who grows up (and are too busy with their work), to come back and destroy the buildings. ( tall buildings = technologies = work /reality that took away imaginations and destroy dolls world). The blonde pink doll is still in perfect shape but after hearing all those tragedies, she decided to join them to destroy the city :3 so their owners would take care of them like they used to. Happiness dont last forever and it could turn into something like this. :( so yeah something like that haha
hahahaa but yeah i think i have a really good idea but my work isnt that good because i did it last minute. (anyway, some people created something like a house ; which im not sure what does it have anything to do with fantasies)so it took me like 3days or a week to finish this. It might look easy but trust me,its not. ITS NOT.
picture taken on wednesday or thursday night for our assignment. the reverse technique. Its pretty interesting and again, i didnt really did a good job here, wait, i didnt even finish it lol. I think i could do better. This picture has to be black and white because, duhh! reverse bha ne :) we had to like use 8B pencil to color the whole A2 paper.(i need at least 2 8B pencils and it took me hours to just make it completely black-.-) I dont think anyone can finish it in one day (..actually they can, tpi cincai lah)
Ms helen :) Shes our bel (consolidating language skill) lecturer for writing and grammar :)
The boys at the back, i forgot what we were doing but im sure its graphic communication class.
Bynnister. Right, we were doing logos. adding colors to our logos ! ha.
And the previous pictures? theyre probably gaming or doing some research on meaning behind the colors they chose. (we cant just randomly add colors to our logo even if it look nice, your reason isnt strong enough)
Our final project. We had to find subject matters for nature and man-made and hafiz (i think) went to catch a lizard and killed it. a big one. Look how determine he is for our project? :) Everyone was like ew so kampungan. Even if it looks a lil kampungan, but look! lizard? for his assignment! My subject matter was broccoli (i went to the store to buy one for rm2), and before that i caught a dead bug. dead one. -.-
meng. I kinda had lunch with ryo, afwan and meng on friday noon hours before bel class start.
Afwan. They were thinking of tapauing food and eat in their room but they changed their mind and decided to eat with us.
...and just ryo, being ryo. -.-
Hanna! the cute girl in fine art department :) shes really cute and friendly. I bet she has a lot of admirers :) haha ! and shes very talented too!
Just kelana :) "camwhoring" with my phone during bel class.
Me and kelana. Oh i really look awkward here. I dont really like taking pictures from this angle. Side way is my favourite angle ; like most of the people. LOL
Our class prep, harry, showing off his dancing skill during IDA class (which was cancelled haha)
He can really dance and knows a lot about dancing from different cultures. how cool is that? harry was dancing in front of the class, teaching us about different dances. He said a true dancer must know how to dance in different styles.
and i remembered Fedli who was sitting behind me said, "uih! CUBA TARIAN TIANG?" hahahhahaa.. and theres more of harry's pictures dancing ! hehee
i think he was kinda embarrassed and didnt like it when people take his pictures but hey, hes good at it :) no ones making fun, just joking. hehee
And this is irwan, with hana and harry as his fashion designer. this is when we're working our ass off trying to finish our final project for visual research - installation art. im not sure which group erwan is in but he took those clothes and..idk, this just happen (before this, erwan and harry was like dancing and tryna look like some kind of a superhero haha, which later, he, erwan, turned himself into a model) Everyone was like stressing and concentrating with their work but its a good laugh haha. a lot took pictures of him while he poses. lol. Eventho some of my group members think i slack a lot and didnt contribute much to our project, (yeah sure, they might think im a lazy bitch or whatever but i know i already did my part). plus its soo obvious bha yg they think that way. Even when i took a break and take pictures of erwan, someone said "serra bagus lagi kau tolong kami drpd kau buang masa disana" bleh. another group member kena tegur oso but she just sit there, hahaa. I ignored him for a while and after im done relaxing myself , of course la i went back doing my shit :) Im not that much of a loser to bring my own group members down and i did put some effort hahaa.
and ta daaahh hahaa
im not sure why this picture is rotated but anyways,
i think this was around january? during drawing l class :) its kinda blurry i know, my friend took this picture and i asked her to sent me the picture :)
I know this is normal but it kinda surprised me how i could remember what day or what class it was on every picture lol!
proves that i still have a good memory! hahaha
Just love (: ♥ 
near death experience, anyone?
